Patterns, patterns, patterns, patterns. Despite our differences, there is a shared path we seem to share, although the reasons may be different.
Most of us began dressing up early, be it 5, 7, or 10. Some began later in their teens, but irregardless we followed similar paths. We dressed in our mother or sister's clothes out of an undefined compulsion. We don't really know why we did it, we just did. And for many, the reward was masturbation and an orgasm.
Yet, when you look back with the clarity that only time and distance can provide, it is easy to see that we traveled the same path as a naturally born girl: dress up; experimentation with makeup; dabble in perfume; and eventually our own fashion sense as we begin building our own wardrobes.
And just like any girl we eventually have thoughts about boys. But here is where the road divides. Did you ever analyze this stage?
When I came out at middle age, I did so to explore in earnest so that I could cure myself of what I thought to be a fetish compulsion. I wasn't. It was a deep transsexualism that became more evident with every passing day. Which is why sex with men felt so natural to me.
But what about if you're not a transsexual; you love everything about being a man, don't want to "be" a woman, you just like to dress up as one? And if you're dressed up and have fantasies about or real-time sex with men, does that make you gay? Maybe not.
There are many reasons people do what they do.
Long before "transgender" became the word of the day, men that cross-dressed were often referred to as transvestites, a term coined back in 1910. And while that term has since dissipated into the shadows, there is another term less kn own called transvestic fetishism:
Transvestic fetishism is a psychiatric diagnosis applied to those who are thought to have an excessive sexual or erotic interest in cross-dressing; this interest is often expressed in autoerotic behavior. It differs from cross-dressing for entertainment or other purposes that do not involve sexual arousal, and is categorized as a paraphilia in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders. Sexual arousal in response to donning sex-typical clothing is homeovestism.While transvestic fetishism is based in eroticism because of the clothes, there is another term that it is defined as a male's propensity to be sexually aroused by the thought of himself as a female. This is called Autogynephilia.
So this swings back to the original question -- why drives us to fantasies of or actual sex with men?
1. Are you simply aroused like any woman would be?
2. Are you a closet homosexual using the guise of dress up?
3. Does being dressed as a woman inspire you to simply want to extend the experience? Or,
3. Is the man simply a prop for you to fulfill the female role?
Not that any of it really matters in the end. As long as you're safe, happy, and content with whatever exploration you're engaged in, then it simply is what it is.
This was just food for thought. So until next time, be safe, stay happy, and always thin pretty.